IT IS UP TO YOU

If it were up to me
I would never be in the same room with you
Never again
If it were up to me
I would wish never to hear from you again
Never again
If it were up to me
I would never entertain your stupid threats anymore
Never again

If it were up to me
I would forget that we happened
If it were up to me
I would kill every feeling I ever had for you
If it were up to me
You would stay in my past

If it were up to me
I would treat you like every other ex
If it were up to me
I would treat you like a stranger
If it were up to me
I would treat you with no mercy
If it were up to me
I would treat you the same way you did me

If it were up to me
I would show you that you never mattered
If it were up to me
I would show you the devil inside of me
If it were up to me
I would show you my broken heart

If it were up to me
I would drag you to hell and back
If it were up to me
I would make you pay for the torture you put me through
If it were up to me
I would make you hate the very day you met me

If it were up to me
I would make you understand the meaning of insight
If it were up to me
I would make you eat back your words
If it were up to me
I would make you know how to respect a woman

If it were up to me
I would show you the dangers of inferiority complex
If it were up to me
I would show you the fruits of lack of self control
If it were up to me
I would show you how to respect a woman’s decision

If it were up to me
I would encourage you to work on your emotions
If it were up to me
I would discourage you from wanting to control everything around you
If it were up to me
I would encourage you to be content with the good things in your life

If it were up to me
I would make you realize how your actions hurt me
If it were up to me
I would make you see how you made me loose faith in humanity
If it were up to me
I would make you realize how deep your words cut

If it were up to me
I would teach you the importance of owning up to your wrongs
If it were up to me
I would teach you the need to take responsibility for your actions
If it were up to me
I would ensure that you never hurt anyone else like you did me

If it were up to me
I would teach you the dangers of projecting your insecurities to those around you
If it were up to me
I would make you realize that you are enough
If it were up to me
I would help you heal from your trauma

But its not up to me
Its up to you
To look within yourself
And understand who you are
Its up to you
To make peace with your broken pieces
Its up to you to seek healing

Its up to you
To forgive yourself
Its up to you
To realize your worth
Its up to you
To realize that adults can talk and communicate

Its up to you
To choose peace of mind over toxicity
Its up to you
To be bold
Its up to you
To decide who you want to be

Its up to you
To choose your relationships
Its up to you
To accept yourself as you are
Its up to you
To choose your battles

Its up to you
To say no to gender based violence
Its up to you
To realize that you don’t always have to be in control
Its up to you
To seek forgiveness

Its up to you
To move on
Its up to you
To walk away
Its up to you
To choose yourself everyday